My love's vengeance that's never free

COULD IT BE WORSE?

TODAY, OUT OF ALL DAYS HAD TO BE THE DAY THAT I HAD TO CRY IN SCHOOL. I MEAN, THE ONLY REAOSN WHY I WISHED TO SAVOUR TODAY WAS BECAUSE ITS THE LAST DAY OF EVERYDAY. ): NOW, WHAT'S GONNA GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO COME TO SCHOOL EVERYDAY? WHAT'S GONNA BECOME OF ME WHEN I LOSE YOU, OR WHEN I WONT REALLY SEE YOU AS OFTEN AGAIN? WHAT AND IF ARE TWO VERY DIFFERENT WORDS. "WHAT" IS THE MARK OF A NEW DISCOVERY WHEREAS "IF" IS A SIMPLE THEORY THAT YOU WISH TO FIND TRUTH IN. TAKE "WHAT" AND "IF" AND PUT THEM TOGETHER AND YOU GET A WHOLE DIFFERENT MEANING. "WHAT IF." WHAT IF I NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN? WHAT IF YOU FIND ANOTHER? WHAT IF I NEVER GET THE CHANCE? WHAT IF WHAT IF WHAT IF)': I CANT TAKE IT. SIGH, I GUESS MY LIFE'S GONNA LOSET HAT SPARK. I JUST REGRET SPENDING THIS DAY BY CRYING NEXT TO EVE AND ARUUN AND ONLY LOOKING AT YOU IN WONDER AND AMAZEMENT INSTEAD OF SMILING OF GREETING YOU OR TELLING YOU GOODBYE. NO. I HAD TO CRY. I HAD TO BE SAD AND I HAD HAD HAD TO LOSE MY BALANCE ON MY TIGHT ROPE AND LOSE MY MIND TRYING TO GET IT BACK.