I THINK I SPEND TOO MUCH TIME THINKING ABOUT WHAT COULD BE RATHER THAN WHAT IS REALISTIC. I CONSTANTLY TRY TO REMIND MYSELF TO GET OVER HIM. I DID, REALLY I DID GET OVER HIM BUT JUST AFTER I DECIDED THAT I'D FINALLY GOT OVER HIM, HE APPEARED IN MY DREAMS. HOW CRAPPY IS THAT?! THEN JUST NOW, AFTER I'D DECIDED, ONCE AGAIN, THAT I WAS OVER HIM, HE PULLED ME IN AGAIN. TELL ME WHY THAT WHEN BELLE TOLD ME THAT, I FELT SADDER-ER AND NOT ESTATIC? WHY? I'VE ASKED ELSA THAT BUT HAHA, YEAH. SIGH. I PICTURE YOU AND I SWINGING ON SWINGS TOGETHER, I PICTURE YOU AND I LYING IN EACHOTHERS ARMS WATCHING THE STARS SHINE. I IMAGINE THAT WE'LL BE TOGETHER. BUT ALL OF A SUDDEN, A VOICE INSIDE MY HEAD SAYS "JEEZ NAT, WHAT THE FISH ARE YOU EXPECTING?!" LIKE MISS ELSA SAID, IF IT'S NOT MEANT TO BE, YOU CANT FORCE IT. SIGH, I LVEO YOU TOO ELSA(L) I JUST WISH THAT I WASNT THIS PESSIMISTIC.
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