My love's vengeance that's never free

BUT YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE I START

{050410'S}WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME? I HATE TO TELL YOU THIS BUT I THINK IM BEGINING TO MOVE ON. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS FOR ME TO SAY THAT I WANTED TO BREAK? THE REAL REASON, YOU STILL DO NOT KNOW. LIKE I TOLD YOU, ONLY JOSLYN KNOWS. TRUST ME, IT'S NOT BECAUSE YOU IGNORED ME. OR MAYBE IT WAS BUT ONLY A SMALL FRACTION OF IT. SITTING HERE, READING WHAT YOU MENTIONED IN YOUR PARADISE, MY EYES BEGAN TO TEAR UP AND TEARS BEGUN ROLLING DOWN MY CHEEKS. I THOUGHT I HAD FORGOTTEN YOU BUT SOMEHOW, CRAZILY, I HAVENT. WHY? MAYBE IT WAS BECAUSE I SAW YOU AGAIN TODAY AND I COULD NOT KEEP MY MIND FROM WANDERING INTO THIS SELFLESS SLEEP. ALMOST LIKE AS IF THE DAY OUR HANDS TOUCHED WAS JUST YESTERDAY. I HATE TO SAY THAT I HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN YOU WHEN I SWORE THAT I WOULD TO BELLE. I HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN ONE BIT OF THE DAY WE HELD HANDS, I HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN HOW I FELT WHEN I GRABBED YOURS AN DI HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN HOW I WAS CRAVING TO HOLD YOUR HAND AGAIN DURING THE DAYS I DIDN'T GET TO SEE YOU. BUT NOW, I FEEL THAT THEY ARE LIKE THE PICTURE ABOVE. REMEMBER THE DAY WE HELD HANDS? I USED THAT PICTURE BUT NOW, IT'S ALL PART OF THE PAST. BELLE SAID TO FORGET IT AND MOVE ON. I HAVE BUT MY SOUL HASNT. SIGHS, I WISH THIS NEVER HAPPENED. BUT THEN IF IT DIDNT HAPPEN, WOULD I HAVE LEARNT THE LESSON? NOPE. I AM SOSOSOSO SORRY. BUT PERHAPS ONE DAY, IT'LL HAPPEN AGAIN BUT RIGHT NOW, I AM... I AM.. NOT... free.... I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND THAT I CAN'T TYPE THEM ALL OUT. I HATE THIS. I WAS TORN UP SO MUCH WHEN I ASKED FOR A BREAK THAT NOW, I AM IMMUNE TO THE PAIN. BELLE SAYS THAT IM STRONGER. SIGH, IM SORRY.)':